I'm the worst person in the entire world and I can't help myself

Ughhh

Holy fuck I just want to fucking drink so bad tonight and it's making me madddd

New hobbies

I've recently fallen in love with yoga and meditation. I never used to do either of these things. I also used to think yoga looked silly like some sort of lazy persons exercise and I imagined self righteous bimbos doing yoga half assed then eating ice cream in their yoga pants and congratulating eachother on a hard work out. I truly understand it now.

Through yoga and meditation I am able to visualize so many things. I visualize my happiness, my sadness I'm leaving behind, and I visualize nature and health. I'm able to clearly feel the warm sun on my skin, the grass and flowers under my toes, and the water rushing in the distant.  I picture my old self, and my future self. My future self comforts my old self, holds her close and whispers that everything will be okay and that one day soon I will become her.

This all sounds so cheesy and silly but it's beautiful in my mind. 

I will keep going. 

I see no bottles in my future. I see purity 

Day 29

Tomorrow will mark another milestone for me and I can't wait! I'm not tempted to drink at all to be honest. That's a shocker for me.

My health is incredible. 

I love eating and drinking so purely.

Aside from feeling clearmindedness, my weight has gone from 160 pounds to 147. That's incredible! My skin is glowing,  my breath is better, work life, relationship, sex life, over all happiness.

My depression is seemingly gone.

Amazing. 

Can't stop won't stop